It's been a very long time since I've been back home, and finally getting the chance to come back for a two week break has been great. It's been five days since I've been home, and I cannot recall feeling this relaxed or calm in quite awhile. Not to say that coming back home after so long did not pose some problems, but they are fairly minor compared to those I left back in the city. I truly missed the peaceful sounds of the countryside amid the trees, deer, and rolling hills of central New Jersey. I missed my local farmer's market and quaint town centre, full of tiny locally owned shops and boutiques- though sadly many have gone out of business while I was away. Terrible how we can still see the remnants of the bad economy even so long after it has begun to improve.
Despite my occasional melancholia at the changes to my little town, I am so glad to see many of the same faces that I remembered from before. I am also glad to see that my altar in my room is still as I left it, candles, incense and all. That is definitely one thing I very much miss having around the house. Even at the beginning of my studies in the craft I had a (very) simple and small altar as my sacred space. Now that I don't have that present in my day-to-day, it does cause me to feel more disconnected to my spirituality than I felt before. Having a marked area as a reminder of my path gave me a greater sense of calm and strength. Not having a visual definition of the old ways has made living my life in accordance with my beliefs much harder. It is much easier to forget to be mindful than to remember mindfulness.
The full moon is here, so I must plan to get in touch with my sacred space before I leave once again. I will post again next week to let all of you, my dear readers, know how it is going.
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