Back again (from a sneeze!)

It's amazing how the smallest things can make you change for the better. For me, it was a sneeze.


And yes, I do realize that I have said this before, but I'm back. Really, I am.
I'm so bored of the doldrums and tired existence I've been shuffling through for the past year now that I've once again thrown in the towel on doing nothing. For good.

But let me get back to my 'semi' interesting story.

Last night I was sitting, reading a book. Not much of an evening, but hey, my life has been that way for awhile now. Anyhow, I was reading, reading, reading, and reading....and then all of a sudden I sneezed.
It was one of those 'once-in-a-life-time-knock-your-socks-of-and-blow-off-your-nose' sneezes, which I've only had once before and let me tell you it hurt like hell with a capital H!
And then, after the pain subsided, I realized that what I felt in that single moment was the most alive I had  felt all day.
Yes, it was a very sad moment of truth. I don't know how often those epiphany-sneezes occur in a lifetime, but the one I had last night was the most pathos-inducing I possibly could have felt. I knew a change was coming. The Goddess doesn't give me subtle messages anymore. Not that I was so inclined to feel anything less than a swift kick in the astral butt! I've let my Goddess and God given spiritual gifts go by the wayside as of late, due to my depressing situation (which I cannot elaborate on right now due to very close constraints), but I see the light at the end of the tunnel, which should be a lot more witchy-looking considering my state of spiritual affairs. But that's what stagnation does to people. Turns your psyche into mush, and then the astral garbage builds up until you are standing shoulder deep in your own mess of emotions and problems- caused by no one else but yours' truly!

So what led me here now do I sense you asking? Time. I have so much time on my hands it's killing me. I never thought I would say that, but yes, I have nothing to do but wait. And it's slowly driving me insane.
Goddess-knows I've been up to my elbows in a bad situation this past year, but now I've come to the point where I must either change myself for the better, or let myself change for the worst. I'm not picking the latter option at any cost. Stagnation will lead to my destruction.
So here I am, and to whomever is reading this, here you are, too.
I don't want to be trendy and cliche, but the phrase, "Be the change" is echoing through my head and I needed to heed the call. Like I once heard a very wise woman say, "No one can do it for you, so do it yourself."
Well I'm doing it now. I'm back to bring myself to world and give whatever small nuggets of wisdom I offer up to the internet gods and to my readers. If I can make someone's day more interesting or a little bit brighter I've done my part in giving back for the day. I have more the offer, but in due time. There's a lot to catch up on right now.

Once again, I'm back, baby. And I come bearing gifts. You'll read more about those in my next blog installments. Stay tuned for an upcoming Tarot talk!