An Imitation of Life

Today I experienced one of my lousy days. I woke up with a mild migraine that turned severe and nothing helped alleviate the pain, leaving me stuck in bed partially immobilized for a few hours that seemed like forever.

In light of my suffering, I tried to make the best of it by amusing myself on my iTouch (yes, I have one, and no, I'm not a techno geek- not that there's anything wrong with that; I just wish I was one).

I have a few tarot apps downloaded of course, so I did a single card reading with the Goddess Tarot (as a side note, I really should invest in that deck one of these days).

The card I drew was the 4 of Swords.
Being in pain, the meaning of the card didn't register with me at first. Then, all of a sudden, it was like a series of mini-explosions were going off in my mind.
At that moment I realized that this card held everything I was experiencing at that point of time and even right now as I'm writing this post hours later.

The 4 of Swords just summed up my entire existence. My life right now is removed from the world at large due to extreme family circumstances. I'm separated from having normal family life, and just a normal life in general for the time being.
I cannot work, or socialize at my leisure, and despite having busy days filled with interactions I feel more alone and isolated than ever.
Not to mention that at the moment of pulling that card I was lying in bed, drained and depleted from the pain of my migraine.

So now you might be thinking about where I'm going with all this. What is the purpose of me telling you about my migraine, my pain, and my awkward life?

Well, it has to do with proving how accurate a one card reading can be. Scarily accurate if you ask me.

The simple act of pulling out one card can sometimes be more illuminating than a huge, elaborate reading that can leave one more full of questions than when they went in search of an answer.
In another way as well, one card readings can also give an idea of how connected to the cards a reader really is.
When I first began doing readings the minor arcana were the hardest for me to read. Learning and understanding that part of a tarot deck took me many years and many, many readings. To this day there are still one or two cards that l still find a bit of difficulty relating to, but no one can fully comprehend the depth of the entire tarot, at least in my humble opinion.

If I've learnt anything today, it's to not discount the value of a one card reading. A card may seem easy to understand at first, but dive deeper into the layers under the surface and you can find out more than you may have ever expected.

Facing Ostara

Happy Ostara everyone!

This Ostara marks the beginning of my third year as a Witch and Pagan. It's amazing how the Wheel of the Year has turned once again, and so soon.

My first ever Ostara was not really celebrated in the ritual sense due to just beginning to learn about Wicca and Paganism.

My second Ostara was a celebration of my official year and a day, and I went all out with bunnies and eggs and tons of decorations, which were nice, but in retrospect wholly unnecessary.

This year's Ostara had none of the bells and whistles I like. No ornaments or incense or candles. Just lots and lots of energy. The amount of energy I felt radiating from the warmth of the and unseasonably warm weather was astounding.

I just wanted to put on a pair of shorts and go gardening, which I don't even know how to do!

So things are looking up this Ostara, and I'm in love with spring once again.