It has been a very, very long time since I last posted. I wish I didn't have to put a long pause on my blog, but unfortunately a sad event and other difficult times has befallen me and my family.
My grandmother- the loving, green-thumbed, and overall wise-woman she was- passed on from a two-week coma in the hospital during the early part of August.
It's funny, you know.Within the last year and half, two comas occurred within my circle of family and friends, and both fell on big Sabbat days.
The first was on Ostara 2010; a friend passed into a coma and 2 days later passed on.
The second was my grandmother this Lammas. Sad, but true.
It was fitting really, for her to pass on after Lammas, as it the second to last harvest festival in the wheel of the year. As if she wanted to go before Samhain, so I could have her with me for that final time before the winter. Not that she loved winter, in fact, she quite loathed it. My grandmother was one of those people that suffered greatly from Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD), and she really found nothing pleasurable about winter except for the snow making everything look clean.
Since her passing, my family and I have felt the void of her loss. She certainly was the matriarch of the family; the center of attention at every family function and the life of the party.
Like my mother always said, she was the tree that held up all the branches of our family, and her passing has left everything to fall away, like a decayed mansion that once held a happy family.
Now things have changed, and life has become complicated and morose. Those were the reasons I left my blogging for long. For who wants to read about family squabbling and sadness? Not me.
I will slowly come back into my blogging, and perhaps get more into my spiritual road trip, which went slightly on hiatus as well.
It is not easy to celebrate an Esbat when you are too tired to look out the window, or too depressed to feel a spark of Goddess love in your heart.
As the months have passed, however, I feel like I need my spirituality even more than before, and I am seriously going to delve deeply into a search for my innermost soul of being.
That is all I can muster the strength to write at this moment.
Take care, readers, and I will post again soon.
